“Me and Thirty ran through ninety-thousand way before a label
He can ask me for a body, no hesitatin', I'ma pay him (Brrt)
I got faith in my high speed chase behind this SRT”
Feeling a little impulsive, I cut my hair – no more length; no more blonde – just a regular fade. Besides it being impulsive – because I just NEEDED to do something “radical” – changing my hair usually marks changes in seasons of my life, like when I cut all my hair off for my 30th birthday.
Let’s see what happens next.
“System overload” – that’s how I’ve been feeling lately, marked by headaches which I never ever get; but I’ve had two within the last week. I’ve also had random outbursts of swearing (in private) and the infamous shadow boxing – somethings up!
As far as I can remember, I have always been an internal processor. I think and think and think and think and think... and there are occasions where all the things processed just stay in my head. Whether it was something emotional, or career-oriented or whatever; it just stays there. It’s like I cook up a 10-course meal just to put it all in the fridge; which in itself doesn’t seem like an issue, but imagine doing that every day, twice a day even – doesn’t sound very productive if you ask me.
A lot has been going on personally as well – stuff that you’ll hear about eventually – but of course we know; I have to process them first…lol. I think I’ve gotten a lot better in the expressing department, but I guess even if I’m eating what I cook now, there’s still some that I will still put in the fridge – and this is on top of what is already there.
Compartmentalisation has always been one of my top tier skills...lol. However, it becomes less effective or efficient as you run out of space to put shit...I mean…things. And I feel like I’m out of space now. The genius in me is trying to convince me to build more cabinets for space, lol… because I have faith in my high speed chance behind this SRT.
No... I’m joking. Lol…because I’ve always had faith in my compartmentalisation skills, I put off seeing a therapist. I guess I felt capable enough to not need one urgently. However, I do think I need some help clearing the food out of the fridge. My nose isn’t always the best at smelling what isn’t good; and sometimes, things that are really worthless have a fake sentimental value. So I need an objective eye and nose to help me out.
I reached out yesterday to someone I think would be good for me…so let’s see how that goes.
Uhhh yeah.
If you’re like me and your fridge is full. If you need some professional help to get rid of some of that clutter; don’t be afraid to ask for help.
The mind is a beautiful thing to waste.
*Yo, Siri, play SRT by Moneybagg Yo, Pooh Shiesty, and BIG30*
